And someday
In the mist of time
When they asked me if I knew you
I'd smile and say you were a friend of mine
And the sadness would be lifted from my eyes
Oh, when I'm old and wise.

Got some vacation money yay, so splurging a bit! Wanted to get Red Dead Redemption 2 but was too late.
Maybe a (small) unbundled gift will come up. ;)

Meanwhile my shrinks refused any meds or just contact at all, for 10 weeks now. :( Apparently they can refuse you treatment) so went back to internet medicine, which is offcourse always a bit shady.

Been playing this, which is kinda fun.

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Some help is better than no help. That's good that you're not giving up.

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Yeah, there might always be risks to it, but better something then nothing, without it's driving me bonkers.
The only other option is alcohol, and i don't want to go back to that, also because i have elevated cholestrol levels and always got the advice to stop drinking.

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what's a "shrink"?

Been playing this, which is kinda fun.

sure looks fun!

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what's a "shrink"?

It's slang for a psychiatrist or psychotherapist. Sometimes it's derogatory, but not always; it was derogatory more often in the past than now.

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never heard that before. guess you learn something new everyday...

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The original term was "head shrinkers", then "head shrinks" then shortened to "shrinks"

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so they were voodoo shamans?

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Well that's what it was referring to, yes. You can tell why it's been shortened and why it's kinda outdated now, right? lol

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Psychiatrist.

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Rock n roll must die i'd usually recommend to wait on a sale, especially since point and click adventures tend to be short, but this one is really lengthy (i am making a walkthrough for it) and it has some humor, it's totally recommendable to even get it now if you got the money to spare.

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I don't have the money to spare but it went right into my wishlist!

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Meanwhile my shrinks refused any meds or just contact at all, for 10 weeks now. :( Apparently they can refuse you treatment) so went back to internet medicine, which is offcourse always a bit shady.

OUCH, not good at all. Damn, man. :( Here's hoping things get better for you soon.

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Worse case scenario the shrinks say tough luck and i be without, then i can go to my regular doctor but that would mean i have to pay for my medicine (i am on wellfare so every bit helps) but even she can say no still, so yeah i need to some good hope.

I thought doctors had an oath about doing no harm, but when they cut me off, i went through a slight hell from withdrawal.

Thanks.

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Why didn't you go to another shrink?

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Meanwhile my shrinks refused any meds or just contact at all, for 10 weeks now. :( Apparently, they can refuse you treatment)

I've read often that it's not uncommon for therapists to refuse contact and/or treat the client if they're dealing with a narcissist. There have been many cases showing that when they take therapy it is often counterproductive because their ability to function rests on preventing themselves from becoming aware of their issues and taking responsibility. More often than not, they end up working with a humanistic therapist who fails to spot the danger and they end up getting better tools and the perfect vocabulary for continuing and often worsening their behavior.

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You really need to stop pissing on strangers for personal pleasure. Especially as a moderator on a public forum.

It's getting become personal and frequent for a good while now. If you don't like this guy, fine, press backspace and go about your day. The way you are going on about it atm... damn pathetic.

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He's not wrong, though.

Lugum needs these self-made "problems" to excuse himself from the every-day responsibilities the rest of us deal with. They give him an excuse to stay on welfare, not get a job (or even look for one), live with his mother at 40+ years old, drink and drug, and sit online and play video games all day. I was "friends" with him for a year, and had to listen to it all the damned time. Always someone else's fault, and never his own. He also feels he's "special", and above not only the rules to which he's held, but above even the rules to which he holds others (for instance, calling a fellow a "spammer" and rule-breaker for making 4 threads in two weeks, when he himself made 4 threads in a single day).

On top of that, you're expected to feel sorry for him. despite the fact that he gets to do nothing but play games all day, and not earn a single thing he's given. You cannot treat someone who doesn't want the help. And why would he? He has it pretty fucking good. He has a (someone else's) roof over his head, (someone else's) food on his plate, (someone else's) money in his wallet, and a huge audience (Steamgifts) to play to so he can get more than he gives here as well. Last I spoke to him, he'd been doing it for over a decade (not only here, but over at GOG as well), with no signs of changing anything but the never-ending string of excuses.

And no, we don't have to "backspace" and allow him to go on and on, day after day. As much as he has a "right" to speak his mind, so do the rest of us who've had to see the same self-pitying spam posts for over half a decade,

So go ahead and feel free to chastise me as well. Mods can suspend me, and people can blacklist me. I don't give a shit. I have two jobs, my own home, two cars, a beautiful girlfriend, and I pay my own way in life. When shit goes wrong, I don't blame anyone else, because that's a damned waste of time. I pick myself up and get things DONE, like a grown man should. NO excuses.

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Really sorry for having problems, and you know what? There are actually people that help one eachother here and actually care, or be a total prick and fulll of assumptions like you are always seems to be making, like you know and keep records of every single person here, not just with me (because apparently you "seem" to know alot about me).

You like to trolll and putting people down, you have never been, and will never be my friend, friends don't stab eachother in the back.
While there are so many genenerous, helpful people here that do want to help eachother out and are true friends.

I am only forced to living with my mom because the housing market is absolutely shit, we can't build houses because EU pollution rules and refugees are always getting prioritized (even when i registered 12 years ago), not because i oh so enjoy living with my mom (not like that would matter anyway, nor i am the only one).
How i don't long for my own family with some kids? It hurts me to the core. Also my mom needs helps from time to time, which i can provide her this way, because that's what you do for real friends and family.

I be the first to admit i need help through medicine making me go through everyday life's stuff, not everyone can do that without medication, it has nothing to do at all with being strong.
And i am not getting any help, as even a simple shrink are refusing me these, and as always i don't own you any explanation.
For your info this wasnt even a "pity party", but as always something to gift away, but i thought some might like to hear a status update while i was at it.

As usual butt out if you can only talk like this.

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I got a 50 says you'll spend your entire day online, playing games or trying to accrue more for yourself.

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Too bad noone gives a care what you think or say.

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I like the part where you didn’t deny it.

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Even if i twiddle my thumbs the whole day then it's not even your damn business.

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You detail your entire personal life on this forum, daily.

If you don’t want people commenting on it, perhaps you should be more selective about what you share publicly.

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"Daily" gtfo, lately i been on like a few day tops, and alot less, which is a pity since you were also alot less here, almost to a point i thought you vanished, but that turned out to be idle hope, and boy what was the forum so much better.

There is a difference between trolling and being civil to one and another, so bye.

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Everything I learned about you has been against my consent. I know that you're broke, I know that you got yourself 2080 Ti, that you preordered Steam Deck, that you have trouble getting a girlfriend or any sort of relationship, and so on. I mean, I know more about you than any other member of SG and it's not because I want to or care. You open dozens of topics on weekly basis and every third one usually has some private detail from your life.

I mean, as of right now, you have opened 1323 discussion topics and we both know that number might even be doubled this time next year. I used to think you were a troll and you do this to get a kick out of agitating people but no, the truth is far sadder. You do this because you have no one in your life, no relationship, no friends. The only thing you have going on in your life is raising that game count +1 after +1 whenever there is some exploited key sale on gee two ay and using SG as your blog site. You crave attention and you are in dire need of having a friend yet your raging narcissism prevents you from behind honest with yourself and more importantly - working on yourself. Because the first step in getting better would be taking responsibility and owning up to your own mistakes. But we both know that's not gonna happen, right?

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I noticed just now that Tzaar mentioned above how you might be over 40 years old. I sincerely hope it is a wrong assumption on his part because if not........dear lord.

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Guess it's my turn to get bashed again. Can't i be proud after doing with a gt430 for 10 years to finally have had a 2080TI? Which been over 3-4 years by now...

First of all you, who called me just a narcissist, and we know the many other people you take digs at, noone finds you suitable to be a mod, and you probably got it with a pack of butter or pity by CG..
The same with Tzaar and Drjournalism and we have to take you all serious how? Because noone does.

If you think every three posts has something personal then you either need glasses or reading comprehesion, buecause it's absolutely bullshit. Sometimes i even am asked how it's going? Why? Because there are people that actually give an interest, it's called humanity, doesn't mean you 3 do, by all means you don't even know the meaning of it, but that doesn't stop you from taking dig after dig, you are all 3 nasty pieces of work.

Newsflash you also don't have to read anything from me, but you rather insult people, i am way more mature in my pinkie, then you could ever be, I don't know why you remotely give a damn, if i play games all day, pick my nose, live or not with my mother (and as i said the housing market is not my fault and probably i am not the only one these days), go worry about your own life for a change. bye.

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Tzaar, is this really necessary? Again and again? You talk about being a man, but all I see right now is a bully. Is that really who you want to be on SG? Can't you just ignore him if you don't like him?

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Is someone a bully for telling you to get off your lazy ass and get a job, so you can quit leeching off your parents, while spending taxpayer money on games and crap (a Steam Deck, for fuck's sake??) for yourself? If so, then sure, I'm a bully. But I'm no idiot for buying the bullshit. To put it into perspective for you - there are likely people who'd love to own the PC or games he has, or a Steam deck - people who work every day of their damned lives, and cannot afford either. And they're paying the damned taxes he's using to buy all of that shit. So yeah, it's annoying as fuck seeing his posts about what all he's bought for himself (a $4000 PC, a $400 gaming chair, consoles, a $200 keyboard, $110 mouse, not to mention thousands of games - and the list goes on and on) knowing there are people who actually deserve that shit but cannot afford it. He could use a fucking ounce of humility and compassion, IMHO. Or at the very least, be sincerely grateful others are paying his way through life.

To answer your question, I was fully prepared to ignore this thread until LeonFowl attacked Xarabas for his comment I very rarely post on Lugum's threads, I typically shake my head and say to myself "let the idiots buy what he's selling", and then I hide the thread with a script I picked up just for his spam. In fact, this thread was hidden until you replied to me.

My last encounter with Lugum was 6 months ago, when he claimed someone else should be suspended (corrected) was spamming (which is, in fact, suspension-worthy) for posting 4 threads in two weeks, while Lugum posted 6 the very same day. Quite the bully, I am, claiming he owed the other guy an apology for calling him out! The prior encounter to that was over a year ago, when I claimed $1 for a $40 game isn't overpriced, and then spent the next five hours being attacked and slandered for my trouble. Your support staff was even kind enough to warn him to remove his comments to avoid suspension! But I'm the fucking bully. My comments are all still there. How about you go read them before saying "again and again?" {Edit: Oh shit, I just realized Lugum continued on in that thread after support told him to stop, and of course, so suspension! Great job, guys!)

"Again and again" my shiny white ass.

He doesn't want the treatment. He doesn't want to get off his ass and change his life. He just wants the drugs (he says so himself in this very thread) and for all of you to feel sorry for him.

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Yes you are a bully (talking about the many other times) the same with xarabas and doctorofjournalism to bloody half the forum here.
Do you live here? Do you know how people live here? Do you know my life? If all the answers are no, then stop talking smack, you are always the ones starting takes the digs whereever and whenever you feel like it. "Rarely" reply on my threads, you do it all the time...Remember the times you always wanted the last word constantly (not just with me).

So i got a steamdeck while others waste it on smoking, gambling, drugs etc that's bullshit reasoning, i got a little more money yeah because i am at my moms, so what i have to just throw it away on the streets then? Don't be weird, i didn't made up this system.

I am the last one to admit i didn't made mistakes but you wouldn't believe the amount of bad luck i also had, especially with jobs.
There isn't a job for someone with my history, my age, i am working on it still though, there are NO houses because every refugee gets in front (and right now half of Ukraine is here or coming here, look it up if you don't believe me) and we can't build houses because EU pollution rules, that's why i have to live with my mom, not because it's a nice luxury hotel or anything. (i do my own washing, my own cooking).
The same reasons apply for jobs because refugees take them up, they get full priority on everything here.

So yeah unless you know the full story, lived even a shred of my life, and aren't being a tool for once back the hell off.
And every time i have to feel explaining myself, when i don't even should or know why i am even doing it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cTLTG4FTNBQ

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"Rarely" reply on my threads, you do it all the time.

I quite literally just posted the last two encounters I've had with you, and only one was on one of your threads.

You're surrounded by enablers, and that's exactly how you like it.

Edit: I see you're still editing your comments multiple times to play to your audience. Some things never change.

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Oh you love to just pick out (do you keep them bookmarked?) whatever and whenever something is convenient in your path eh just like bullies do..
I just won't pick out to dig all the times you did start, i got better things to do, because it's also just feeding a troll.
Also I NEVER SAID TO SUSPEND HIM, liar, i only said it was much.

No beside you, doctorofjournalism and xarabas, i am surrounded here by actual decent (and some loving, including in real life).people.

And you got something mentally wrong, no wonder you picked the avatar that you did, A bullying twisted narcissist.

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It's not just me he is a bully against, he seemed more out of sight the last few months, so the bullying also, but it seems he sometimes still can't let himself go. And yeah i wish he could just leave me alone.

In one way i want to keep this open so everyone can see i got nothing to hide, nor do wrong and let people see how he is, yet i risk getting more garbage so better to just close it.

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Thank you, wow a narcissist, normally that would be enough reason for anyone else to have become suspended.. But no not a mod..

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It's almost the steam summer sale! 31 days!

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That's true!, but regardless of what people think, the grey markets also have very good deals, cheaper often then any steam sale will be.

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Can you ask for a different therapist? Don't know how healthcare works in your country but maybe there's a way to do it. A doctor refusing to help you must feel pretty awful.

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I am trying to, but there is a possibility they can also just say no because they don't have an obligation like normal doctors to help you, i might revert back to my normal doctor (with less knowledge) and then unlike with a shrink i then have to pay for my medicine.
But even she can say no too, and then i really wouldn't have any help.

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"internet medicine, which is offcourse always a bit shady."

More than a little bit shady. I had one person recommend prayers for my autism, saying I deserved to be cured because god loves me. Apparently a perfectly normal neurotype is the work of satan. Folks also shill "miracle" mineral solution for this sort of thing.🥴

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I can understand that type of medicine being very shady, what i am taking about is pretty much what you could take from a pharmacy but then they add fluoride f.e so so for our government that makes it legal somehow. (we live in the netherlands so we always been easy with drugs). I would never try THAT sort of shady stuff. :)

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Thx for sharing the chill tunes!
Just heard someone mention this group yesterday, and had been meaning to take a listen.

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Enjoy!

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One of my favs from Alan Parsons Project. Thanks!

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I was lucky enough to see them live! Front stage so you could almost touch them.

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Pretty nice song. :)

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Meanwhile my shrinks refused any meds or just contact at all, for 10 weeks now. :( Apparently they can refuse you treatment) so went back to internet medicine, which is offcourse always a bit shady.

Hope everything is good. Any particular reason they are refusing you treatment?

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Well due corona everything went through phone and email, and one day i had a phone appointment and they didn't call me anymore.
Through a middle person i had to hear they would come to my house at x date, but i objected to that, because if you want to make an appointment you do that directly with me, and not someone else, and i mailed that but they just refused to answer me back and their phone numbers are private offcourse, so i can only mail and they ignore all of them.

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That is weird. You psychiatrist doesn't seem to be a reliable one to me. Have you considered switching?
Also, how are you holding on without any therapies?

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Therapists, unlike most other doctors, are allowed to refuse treatment to anyone for any reason.
They don't usually refuse to treat patient for any reason, most often it's because they believe the patient is not able or not willing to participate in their treatment but they absolutely can refuse without even giving you a reason.
Most of the time they do have the courtesy to tell you they won't treat you but not if they believe you are not willing to hear it.

Talking in general terms here, ofc

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Oh, I didn't know about that. I have no experience with psychiatrists, and in fact I don't know anyone IRL who has. Psychiatrist are not very common in my region.

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Yeah what Fluffster said they can refuse you for any reason, maybe not everyone believes me, but really in my case they didn't say anything for any reason, i had a team of 2 people, with 1 of them i had a phone appointment, which he didn't folllow through on, so i mailed him and later his colleague, both about 2-3 times (after 2-3 weeks) and i got zero replies.

I am fine without the therapies, it's the part without meds that was a hell, i came over it with (with alcohol though) but it does now make me slightly worried about pills (if i ever get a shrink again and they might going to cut me off again).

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I don't understand the whole thing but seems you do have things under control to some extend. Hoping it only gets better going forward.

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To some extend yeah, i have to wait till i might get different shrinks, go back to the normal doctor (which means i have to pay my own medicine) or resort to internet pills (with all it's risks).

Thank you, really appreciated it.

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That sounds bit troublesome but definitely doable. It's important to take care of yourself.
All the best!

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Thanks for keeping things alive around here :)

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Thank you, appreciated. :)

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