Well, there you go -- hanging in there means keeping open the possibility of good things happening.
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Though I don't know you I was happy to read that you seem to have taken a step towards a better life. I found that for me it was hard to accept who I am and that I am worth something, anything. Those formative years were hell for me, looking back. And I know that all the "think/be positive" advice I received all around really made it worse. Because either people clearly didn't understand anxiety and depression (and thus me) or maybe it was really me who was just too stupid to figure out that whole positive attitude.
I was lucky enough to realise I needed a clean break from my past and start all over again. It was scary at first, but I soon realised how much I had missed out on because I never allowed myself to be me. So it is wonderful to read that you are no longer hiding who you are. It makes everything so tremendously much easier for you, but also all the people who actually care about the real you.
So keep doing what you are doing. I wish you happiness and that you can accept feeling loved by people close to you. Took me long enough, I hope you are a quicker learner. ;)
P.S.: While I know from experience that the "hang in there, it will get better" slogan sounds so hollow, I can assure you from my own experience: It does. In general I am an incredibly happy person now, despite still hating people in general (because we, as a race, suck as proved over and over again in history and today). But I found that special someone who brightens every single day for me. And even without her I would still be so much happier now than 25 years ago. So trust me, it most assuredly does get easier and better if you just allow good things to happen to you simply by accepting who you are and being yourself.
All the best!
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Positive energy, something like I'm afraid of all frowns
Positivity ain't my thing, mostly 'cause the people who preach it say that you should be positive always and that everything will get better. They disregard that having emotion is human, it's healthy to cry, sigh, and get pissed sometimes.And they disregard loss, they focus on what you can gain but don't realize that you can't replace everything.
Positivity ain't my thing, but my gf's drunken new year's speech has made me realize what I had again, people who actually cared about and loved me.
last year wasn't great, but the best things in my life happened to me then. I found someone who actually
loves me. And I'm a shitty gf because I just try to give people what they want so they like me, but she just wants me, and thats someone I don't want anyone to see. But she's the best thing in my life.
I also found other people who cared for me. I made some internet friends, (though that was mostly the year before.), and now some ones in rel life.
I got a job. I'm wanted for manager, but I don't think I could with my anxiety. But the fact I was able to get past my anxiety in the first place to get a job is huge.
And I've become myself. I'm no longer hiding who I am most of the time. And I did this without the help of my shitty hmo, 'cause they basically fucking abandoned me.
I wish I had someone else to send this too, but I guess the site that I've made hate me'll have to do, lol.
I hope y'all had a wonderful holiday and good luck and well wishes going into this year. Find hope in this cold, dark, fucking world
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