How to fix my life? [trash train inside]

I am CS Engineering student as well so maybe i can help.
Tell me the topics you are dealing with
I am also graduating next year so maybe i can help you.

if you hate it dont do it
If you really want to make your dreams come true than get your ass together for some months or the entire year and learn .
Maybe harsh but it is what it is maths aint that hard if you really try to understand it .

Perhaps consider switching your major?

First "fixing your life" is already the wrong way to approach it, you probably want a good job, good money, we all do, but not everyone will be granted that, or let me ask it differently, will you life be forever "broken" if you got some lower paid job? No.
And i think you are focussing too much on that part (what you mean with fixing and having a plan) that you want a good paying job.
And would you even get a job guarantee after all this? In this era i doubt it.

Second if you keep failing and even having to force yourself, maybe this just isn't your thing, someone can help you with math and physics stuff but only to an extend, some people just plain suck at maths (me included), just as a doctor can completely suck at computer stuff.
Sucks to waste years, start over but sometimes it's just a lesson learned.

Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans, trust me.

https://youtu.be/cojNVe_MPL4?t=571

Well, first of all, you are writing this here because it is a valid concern and you are posing your concern before people with similar interests who may have been or currently are in the same situation as you. So it may or may not help, but it was a good call.

Now, it is indeed hard to focus on a subject you dislike. But the thing is, during that time you're thinking about how much you dislike the topic, which only makes it harder (imagine swimming upstream)... what you need to do, if you are sure that is the path that you wish to follow, is to accept the discomfort and focus instead on the future good that success on these subjects will bring you. More study = greater future success / more resources for you or loved ones, etc. (depends on each person). Fact is, these subjects require study and commitment for everyone, no other way around it.

If on the other hand you are not 100% sure if this is the path for you, pause and think on what you really want. CS is such a vast discipline that sometimes specializing on key topics is a good thing.

Finally, though there may not be many opportunities in your country, CE and CS are increasingly possible to practice remotely, if you train the right skills. Numerous online platforms offer the chance to work at a distance, and experience may grant you additional opportunities in the EU or other countries.

I know this is all abstract and shallow, but I just wanted to say to stick with it. Your effort is good, sometimes all we need is a different perspective.

You can either chase your dreams or let them fly away because you cannot accomplish them.
I hope that you can understand that without hard work and doing things that we hate, we cannot accomplish anything.
Having said that, I wish that you can pursuit a career that you like and that you can live your life happily.
Unfortunately, we are grown ups now. We must put our asses down and work.
Whether you accomplish your goals or not, it is up to you.
ALWAYS REMEMBER that you can be happy in your life, even if you did NOT accomplished your dreams.
Check what you can and what you cannot do. If it is necessary, change your path but don't regret it.
You changed your dreams, you changed your path, you changed yourself. That is all.
Be you and try your best.
I hope it all goes well in your life.

Hm. My sis was doing a computer science degree, and even if you don't have it over there, she switched out of it for the same reasons as you -- maths and that weren't her strong points, and it stopped her from enjoying her studies. She wasn't happy about switching, always wanted to go down that route, but after changing to something she enjoys fully she's a hell of a lot happier now.

I think the best way to fix your life is just do what you like doing. No point slaving away with the hope of eventually being happy if you'll be feeling down the whole way there. Either way, good luck :v

Why is Computer Science not a thing in Turkey? Is there no prospect of jobs, or something?

I dunno what to tell you to be honest. I've studied Software Development most recently. I did a postgrad diploma after coming from a very different background. (I have a Masters in Design) There was no physics on the course, BUT... the people who majored in physics on their undergrad etc had a better understanding of data structures and algorithms when we started. I can definitely see how it can be beneficial to you to study it. It helps you to think a certain way, and in turn makes better computer scientists.

Now, I still got first class honours (in SD) without any physics knowledge, but perhaps you're thinking of it as something that is unnecessary to your future career and that's why you don't care for it?

If Computer Science is REALLY what you want to do, consider going into a different area of it where you'll be more comfortable. I think you're limiting yourself by saying that Computer Engineering is your only option. If you stick to CE, you've got to think of physics as a friend instead of an enemy. I think from the sounds of it, you've got the capabilities there to do great at whatever you do, but you do actually have to like the course that you're doing. Don't torture yourself. :)

Bump

My mother was a bank clerk and I thought I could do that, too. I studied economics (and foreign languages) at high school, then I started studying economics at the university, but I found out, what they were teaching us was something people needed in order to teach in school/university. Not something useful in life and work. Abstract and useless formulae and theories and so on.
After years struggling with exams I kept failing and jobs I couldn't get, I found myself applying and then working for a railroad company. Now I drive trains (still learning), the job is nice, the pay is good and I don't regret quitting university at all. Actually, I regret not quitting it earlier.
I know abandoning your dreams can be hard, but not everyone can pursue and achieve them (I'm a champion at this). If you can't pass university exams, just forget about it and look for a specific, professional course. You can study what you are interested in, leaving all those algebra/math/physics formulas to professors and scientists.
Just my two cents. Cheer up and good luck!

Good luck

Hello.

First of all, I think many teachers fail to expose the true purpose of math. How many students have asked themselves: "what practical purpose does (insert calculus problem) this has in my daily life?". In my experience, many people ask these things, and it makes them feel very alienated about math. The true purpose of math in general is to develop abstract thinking in a person. Abstract thinking is very important in computer science and in every aspect of our life, at variable degree. Abstract thinking is a skill that needs to be cultivated, and it lets you "see" and interpret things that are not physically present, like code for example, and lets you translate those things into something substantial. It also makes you really good at problem solving( a very employable skill) and logic. It will also let you see math, physics, and even astronomy and chemistry with other "light". Prolific developers also have a very developed abstract thinking skill.

I would say that your math teachers failed you along the way, maybe they were too orthodox in their way of teaching math or some other reason. I failed calculus at my university. I was so pissed off at myself because I have never failed any assignature so I took away my free time and went to the library for 6 months to teach myself calculus and algebra. I ended up with a perfect grade when I retook calculus. Most importantly I discovered a book which I fell in love with. It is called "Burn your math class" by Jason Wilkes. He gives you an unorthodox approach to math (calculus and algebra specially) and makes you feel immersed almost immediately, it doesn't feel like a chore at all. That was the first time I ever felt that way about math and that is the reason I am fond of that book.

I would recommend you to give it a try, develop your abstract thinking using that book and maybe some good logic book (I do not know any logic book with the same approach as Jason Wilkes's book tho). Dedicate some time to this daily. You will start to see how the hate you feel towards math was not at math itself, but at how it was taught to you.

My comment may not solve your Resit Exams issue coming in six days. But you said you want to fix that aspect of your life and that was what my comment tried to approach. That's all I have to say.

Maybe try some classes on Khan Academy.

Sympathy bump. I can't really help with any sound advice but I kinda sorta know the feeling, to a degree. I hope you get the insight and/or push you need!

Try a different teacher. I did good in high school algebra I, but I barley passed high school algebra II. I had to work for 4 years before I went to college and I was nervous about taking college algebra. My advisor told me to sign up for it and if I didn't do well within the first few weeks I could drop it and take the refresher courses. I actually passed college algebra with an A+. My high school algebra II teacher was shit. She literally copied the examples from the text book and assigned homework. My college algebra professor actually took the time to teach us algebra, and I was able to understand it better than ever.

Another suggestions is, if you're unhappy with your studies in computer engineerring, switch to something else. I had always been into computers as a hobby for gaming, and during my 4 years between high school and college, I had various jobs working with computers from repair to running a local ISP to working at a nuclear power plant. I was offered a high paying job, nearly 100k per year starting salary, but I wasn't happy with what I was doing. I turned down the job offer, quit my job and went to college to study something that I always wanted to do, aviation, and I was never happier.

why you study something that you don't like??
computer and maths hold their hands, you can't study one without the other (computer without maths)

I don't know how far you are into your higher education but it sounds like you're doing what I did early on... saving your disliked/weakest subjects for last (which was a mistake for me). If you have any remaining classes left, I suggest pairing one you dislike with one that you like or can get through with less stress and go part time. If you're struggling, make use of tutors and the campus library or learning center. There is also plenty of online sources that can help too.

If I didn't know any better, it also sounds like that you are a bit burned out. If you can, try taking a semester off and recoup. Also, as an option while you're on hiatus, you can use your old text books and notes and practice the math and physics to keep your brain focused. Not only will you have a head start when you get back in the saddle, the content will still be fresh in your mind. Perhaps during that time, something will click for you.

Best wishes and best of luck!

Calculus is a strange concept, one of those subjects that is a complete mystery until all of a sudden you just get it, like algebra. The way things are taught makes a big difference. I was a few weeks into my first year at university and feeling completely lost when I discovered to my horror that they were just covering material I already knew from high school mathematics (so how was I possibly going to cope with new information?). Find someone that can explain it to you, either a classmate or a tutor. It is possible that you will look back on your "I'm not good at math" phase and think how wrong you were.

Unfortunately, you have to learn to study things you hate in science and engineering because sometimes things are taught in abstract ways that are difficult to relate to (in part because universities want to produce academics, since research publications is how they raise their profile and attracting students on this basis is how they make their money). I found engineering much easier in the final two years when I was learning stuff with obvious practical applications rather than the abstract proofs of fundamental concepts that they taught in the first couple of years.

In what will be called "work" of humanity today, machines will do in a few years.
You should not bother too much with your studies.
If you do your best to do something you do not like or do not like, you can not expect results.
If you do your best to do something you like and do what you like, you can not expect results.

But you can get the satisfaction of your heart.
And let's think about one.
What you are doing is "Can anyone else do?"

The earth is home to quite a few people.
There are many people who can do the same work.
Then, if you pursue what you like, no one is in trouble.

And "studying" and "knowledge" are not the end of studies in school.
It's something that will last forever, and you need to keep updating what you remember.

You are everywhere. You are in the world.
What you want to know! can you enjoy self! What you am good at!
Recall! There is an answer there.

You know that I am not very good at giving advice ragido, but I hope u will achieve what u are looking for someday

The source of most of your problems is that you are young and inexperienced. That may sound "negative" to you, but it actually comes with both benefits and drawbacks. Your complaints are all connected to the drawbacks. When you are having difficulty understanding how to approach a situation and how to overcome obstacles, the most efficient solution involves seeking the guidance of those with experience and wisdom. In other words, talk to your elders.

Speaking as one who once struggled with Math, was once a Computer Engineering student, and has had to deal with hating something I nevertheless felt compelled to do, I have a lot to say about those things. Instead of writing a book in this forum, however, I will just draw your attention to some important points. The goal is to achieve a better understanding of yourself and your life. After all, if you cannot understand what is going on in your head and heart, you will continue to fight against your own nature.

First, you need to understand what you really want, and why you want it. You say you want to get a degree in CE, but that is just a piece of paper. It is not your actual goal. Instead of focusing on a single step in the journey, focus on your actual destination. There are countless paths you may take, countless things you might accomplish, but unless you address the"Why" of what you are doing, you will arrive at your destination unhappy and unfulfilled. Many people make this mistake, and it is a big one. Do not be the person who says to him or herself, "I spent years of my life working very hard to become a Computer Engineer, and now that I am one, I realize that was not what I wanted." You need to act like a psychologist and clarify your true goal.

"I want to be a Computer Engineer."*
For what reason?
"So I can build amazing computer components."
For what reason?
"So I can make a lot of money and become famous."
For what reason?
"So people will respect me and love me."
Ah, now, we are getting to the actual reason for all of this.

HINT: The fact that you hate math and physics indicates that you do not actually want to be a Computer Engineer, a job that is mostly about using math and physics.

Second, you need to be more considerate of yourself. Trying to do something you really do not want to do is counter-productive. Not only will it be extremely difficult, the end result will be a failure. Your mind and heart have limits to what they will allow, and you cannot always force them. When you find yourself unable to "move forward," remember this: "If a person find him or herself unable to follow a course of action, it is because he or she does not want to do it. If there was truly a desire to do it, he or she would somehow manage it." If you continue to fight yourself, you will continue to experience resistance and sabotage from yourself.

Third, you need to remember that there is always more than one path to your goal. If the way ahead is blocked by a wall, go around it. If you cannot go around it, go over it. Or under. Or perhaps even through. There is always another way. You just have to find it or invent it. Talk to your elders as they have experience in finding "other ways" and can provide solutions which have never even occurred to you.

Fourth, you need to broaden your idea of what attending university means. (See my third point for reference.) You are not required to achieve a particular degree. You are not required to study only one subject. You are not required to know which degree you are pursuing in the first year of study. You are not required to attend school from date X to date Y, without any pauses, and graduate by date Z. You are not required to complete your studies without any help from the faculty and/or services which the university provides. You are not required to follow any particular person's example or plan of action while attending school. You are not required to give up employment while attending school. In fact, you are not required to attend university at all. There are countless people on this planet who find meaningful, gainful employment doing what they love to do, and live happy lives, all without having attended university. You are too young to know what all is possible, so do not limit yourself by defining what is "impossible."

Fifth, you need to understand that "fixing your life" happens in the present, not the future. Having a good life means being able to provide food, shelter, and clothing to you and your family. Those who content themselves with what they can accomplish and what they have are the happy ones. Those who focus on what they do not have or cannot obtain will never achieve happiness. It really is that simple. "But what about dreams?" you ask. Yes, what about them? They are dreams. Some are crazy fantasies, some are worthy of becoming goals, and some are just nice to think about. Learn to tell them apart so that you may know what to do with each. The main thing is to remember that you live in reality, here in the present. You cannot change the past, and the future is unknown. Whatever you are going to do with your life, it needs to be done right here, right now. Decide what your goal is and take a step in that direction. Then, you can take another step, and so on. Fix your mind and you will fix your life.

I believe that is enough for now. If I have been clear in my writing, you will hopefully have a better perspective of your situation. There are just a couple of things I did not cover:

i am terrible at math because my foundation of math is terrible

Math is like a stack of blocks. Each level of math is built upon the one below it, so "fixing" your math involves going back to a solid foundation and then rebuilding from there. If your basic algebra is shaky, that is the point at which you need to begin rebuilding. Most people do not use math beyond basic algebra, so you may want to stop there.

I have a future plan

Yes, and then Life™ happens. Make your plans, but realize that they are for the moment. When your life changes, or when your desires change, your plans should change with them. That happens almost constantly, so you will find yourself updating your plans (or even throwing them out) on a regular basis. Welcome to Life™. Do the best you can, try to enjoy the good parts, and remember that nobody gets out of it alive.

I hope that I have said something useful to you.

Well first of all you shouldn't title a thread putting "my life" and "trash" next to each other. huge mistake.

and... that's all from me, Ragido.
"math" is "martian language", and already had hard time reading it up here, for at least five times five.

as per CS, -maybe you already know it- i have an huge link, it's CS50 at edX, taught by a force of nature, David Malan:

https://www.edx.org/course/cs50s-introduction-to-computer-science

never made to finish, started multiple times, might also inspire you choosing a right path, spotting the right decision or just find something else that might help you. never ever forget to have fun, meanwhile.

1st of all, I want to say @VeniVidiVici gave very sound advice for maths and @MisterWolf for your situation. What @Akzeriuth said is true, Computing and Maths basically go hand in hand. I do not know why you need physics. I was a pretty good maths student when I was young but just average when I go into Secondary school and had to drop Higher Maths.

I thought when I studied for a diploma I would be in trouble, yes indeed I had but I managed to pull through as I always had interest in maths and enjoy logical thinking. I am a pretty bad programmer though. Due to my situation at home I was not able to concentrate on studies at that time. However when I was pondering whether to apply for overseas University, one of the main criteria was Maths and English which allowed me to apply into a few Unis in Australia but I had to give up due to financial reasons.

I was initially going to ask if you have a Career advisor/counselor in your school but it seems you've had talked to a professor. I was not able to concentrate on my studies due to the constant financial pressure of not able to pay my semester fees. If you are under that pressure I understand the stress. If you are able to change a different course, you might be able to comeback to do another degree or even masters once you started working. For example, I've always like business but because Computing was new then I chose Computing, there's simply too many Business student and I probably will do well in that subject. I've also checked that if I get a CS Degree I can also go for MBA after that so that's a viable route in long term. And of course that is just planning.

Short term, I'll suggest to fix your maths issue. I am really fortunate, when I failed English in Secondary, I had a friend whom I stuck to/pester to improve my oral english. When my programming is poor, I stuck around another friend to learn as he was top in the class tho initially he dislike it but we became good friends. Show that you wanted to learn, almost desperately, show that hardwork and others will help. I am still a bad programmer at the end of the day but I am very grateful for those that came along my path and helped me out.

I really hope you'll find a solution to your maths, not sure if you are able to replace physics with something else. if not changing a degree which you feel comfortable with might not be a bad option. ^_^ Cheerios~

Computer science (or computer engineering) without math sounds kinda impossible, so I don't even know how to help, it's really hard situation. It could be wiser to chose something that suits you better, but I understand that switching this now can be a huge problem. I can only wish you luck an patience.

Hey! I'm a sysadmin student, finishing my first year (hopefully) I failed two exams in the whole year and already did the exam of one (passed), second and last will be this 12th. Here, this module is only two years so I should be halfway there.

Only TWO people got to the second course without any failed exam, and we expect to be 10-12 people for next year, but I believe there will be less.

So good luck with this hard stuff