main thread : https://www.steamgifts.com/discussion/DrsJt/youre-not-alone-3

Hey there, a friend of mine committed suicide this past week-end. She was struggling with depression for a long time. She was sad, unhappy, and could not see past it. She was 40 years young. It saddens me a lot because we always feel inadequate when this happens. We feel guilty.

I want to send her love and affection so that her soul may be at peace with the universe and that whatever happens after death will not be worse than what she felt on this earth.

If anyone reading this feels at the end of the road, please contact someone that makes you laugh or calm. Please contact a mental health professional through anonymous lines or whatever means that are at you disposal. It may feel that nothing else will change, but THIS IS NOT TRUE. You can get out of this.

I love you folks.

Since she was an artist at heart, here's a little something to get the wheel of love rolling https://www.steamgifts.com/giveaway/1AzzC/passpartout-the-starving-artist

Donated by niceguyjon : https://www.steamgifts.com/giveaway/Vfls7/passpartout-the-starving-artist

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For me personally, I've been considering suicide as an option lately but I don't think I have it in me to go through with it anyway.
I think I can understand your friend decision of ending her life. It's just so hard to convince yourself that things will get better when you've been that way for a really long time. It's just a constant of "I don't wanna die but I don't want to live this way anymore".
I am really sorry for your lost. I do hope things really do get better for everyone.
Also, this song really helps me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kb24RrHIbFk

6 years ago
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Thanks for sharing Mr, I know that sometime life is hard and we are not in societies that are ver interested in us people other than our money and consumption.

Stay strong, talk to people who value you for who you are and want to help you (not to fix you).

Take care <3

6 years ago
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I can totally understand the "I don't want to live this way anymore" part, but I hope you are able to find a way to keep living a different way, a better way. I hope you're able to find the support and help to make things better.

6 years ago
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You might want to link to one of the self-help threads like the "You are not alone" one.

6 years ago
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done, thanks ;)

6 years ago
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This really hits close to home, 'cause I struggle with depression as well and some days I feel like just ending it all because life just feels black and white, there's no taste to it.

Sorry for the loss of your friend.

6 years ago
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I personally know what you mean. I hope you find it in you to turn around this feeling and the courage to go on with the life you've got. Sometime from now i'm sure something good is going to happen.

Take care friend

6 years ago
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I'm very sorry

6 years ago
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Thanks

6 years ago
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My condolences and all the best in these trying times. I hope you have IRL people to talk to and console with.

6 years ago
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Thank you. I do, thanks for caring ;)

6 years ago
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There are no possible words to truly help alleviate your pain right now, but just know that you are not guilty, you did your best with an impossible situation. Depression and tragedy can cloud your mind to such an extent you can't see anything else :(

I lost my girlfriend to suicide and I've tried following on her footsteps twice already, but very recently I met someone that, like you said, makes me laugh and feel calm and hopeful for my own future. Keep sending your friend all the love in the world, but please remember that you also need to take care of yourself; we often forget to tend to our own needs at times like these-- keep your friends close, talk to them, let them make you smile. There's no guilt in being able to smile even after a tragegy.

Today all my love goes to your friend's beautiful soul :')

edit: if you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you. I mean it.

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Thanks Wolfborn, I was thinking about you when I wrote that post. Fate decided that I was to share this experience with you although in a different manner.

I have a very good friend network. It's just that feelings and rationale are not always communicating well enough and one is taking precedence on the other . I'm taking up your offer though, I've added you on steam.

Stay strong brother

6 years ago
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It might still be easier to exchange messages here or on one of my old giveaways, if you'd prefer it, due to the different time zone, etc, but either way: invite accepted :)

6 years ago
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I'm sure we'll find the perfect way to communicate, we indeed have plenty of options ^_^

Be seeing you ;)

6 years ago
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It's hard to keep walking through that sense of grief, but it's great that you are honoring their memory with little acts of positivity and support. If you're this lucid, I have no doubt that you'll be able to turn her tragedy into seeds of something that will eventually give a bit of hope to someone who needs it, whether or not you know who they are or what they're going through.

Hang in there!

6 years ago
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Thank you for your kind words. In fact, and TBH, I'm sensing guilt rather than feeling guilty if you get what I mean... I'm very lucky and happy now in my life, I just feel very sad when we loose people with great sensibility.

Take care

6 years ago
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People saying suicide is "their choice" incoming. Oh, they're already here. I'm sorry for your loss.

6 years ago
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Thanks for your sympathy.

6 years ago
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It's devastating, but remember this gem that keeps popping up for me lately: People who commit suicide seldom want to die - they just want the pain to stop.

6 years ago
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Heh, I was like this a year ago.

I kinda wonder if I'll get over what I currently feel. A year ago for months every day I felt that I want to die, to end it all. Right now I feel better. And yet... I wouldn't really mind it too much if a car drove over me when crossing the road. I don't want to die anymore, but there's still this indifference left and I wonder if it's going to change at some point.

Well, I guess that at least depression changes your personality. A lot of people tell me that I'm unusually empathetic and mature for my age. It's hard not to be when you know what hardness is for other people and you don't want them to go through the same. It's hard to be immature when you're just tired of all the s*** in the world.

6 years ago
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Hardship brings wisdom. People with depression and other what-we-call-mental-health-problems are often sensitive and can see a lot of things other people don't.

Hang in there, life should bring you something to live for ^_^

6 years ago
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Yeah I know that. Now we have to find a way to mend that and help them find some release.

6 years ago
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Do not feel guilty; you were a good friend. She made her decisions how to wade through the swamp. She was obviously in much pain--may she rest in peace.

6 years ago
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Thanks

6 years ago
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damn.. that's rough
my sincerest sympathies

6 years ago
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Thank you

6 years ago
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I'm not really sure what to say after reading that, other than I'm sorry for your loss. It's always hard hearing about someone who decided to quit the fight. I hope your friend finally found the peace she sought.

It's also important to recognize the loved ones she left behind, so don't forget how important you are, too. Take good care of yourself.

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Thnk you for your kind words ^_^

6 years ago
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May she rest in peace

6 years ago
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I hope so too

6 years ago
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I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope that her soul is at peace now, and that you are able to find peace as well.

6 years ago
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Thank you, I will ;)

6 years ago
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Bump for sympathy and condolences.

6 years ago
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Thanks

6 years ago
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i'm sorry for your loss. it's always so saddening when people pass away before their time trying to find peace in death when they couldn't find peace in life.

i always wonder what chain of events took them there.
and also what it would take to get yourself there.

sometimes i think about the pros and cons but one point always wins: if you go down that road you rob yourself of all chances of things getting better. and i can't have that.

have a light.

6 years ago
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Thank you for your wise words. I hope they will spread with hope through those saddened heart.

6 years ago
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My teenage-years best friend did the same a few months ago, also close to the age of 40. I understand how you can feel. As someone told me on this forum, cherish the good memories you have with your friend and make them live forever in your heart...
Best wishes.

6 years ago
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Thank you and my condolences to you.

Stay strong friend. <3

6 years ago
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that is so sad to hear. my condolences. and stay strong

6 years ago
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Thank you !

6 years ago
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Sorry for your loss, that sucks. But please stop with the trigger warning bs. It does more harm than good and needs to stop: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/talking-about-men/201703/trigger-warnings-and-mental-health-where-is-the-evidence

6 years ago
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Thanks for your thought. I read the article and it does have a good point. I changed the title.

6 years ago
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<3

6 years ago
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^_^
<3

6 years ago
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really sorry, I wish your health good

6 years ago
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Thanks a lot, you too.

6 years ago
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thanjks

6 years ago
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Can i donate my copy of passpartout to this thread for suicide awareness?

https://www.steamgifts.com/giveaway/Vfls7/passpartout-the-starving-artist

6 years ago
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of cours !
Thank you ;)

6 years ago
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A hug for you!!

6 years ago
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hug back

6 years ago
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Bump.

6 years ago
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Thanks

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Closed 6 years ago by absolutely3rd.