I'm in a lot of pain.

I don't have my beloved mom anymore...

This winter is so cold...

I wanted to make a topic dedicated to the New Year or my Birthday or...
But now the whole life has lost its colors..

And I don't want anything and I don't know how to live on...

F"ck...
Excuse me...

I'll just lay out what I prepared. Let it please someone.

Because my upcoming Birthday will definitely not bring me joy..
On February 17, I will be sad, as I have been all these days...

Choose something of these:

- ❄️ - ❄️ - ❄️ - ❄️ -

.

I drink sedatives every night and I'm afraid to sleep. I feel very bad and hurt.
Forgive me, those who read this... I just have almost no one to share my pain with... 😢

My mom's name was Elena.
If any of you want to, commemorate her or just wish her to get into the Kingdom of Heaven.

She was the kindest, most gentle and most sympathetic person in the world. There are very few such people at all. She helped even strangers and was always very kind-hearted and sensitive ❤️

It hurts me to tears that evil people continue to live, and such a bright and kind person is no longer with us...

Excuse me..
I'm in a lot of pain..
My tears have been flowing for many days in a row.... 🌧

Listen to this music - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLrljU2D3ys

It's as light and tender as my dear mom Elena... ✨

View attached image.
2 years ago*

Comment has been collapsed.

It wasn't Covid.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Wow. My most sincere condolences on your loss. And you do NOT have to be alone. You have this site and (some) of it's friendly and compassionate users here to listen.

I know times are hard now, but you have your memories of here and those will never die. She will always be in your heart and a part of your soul.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

I'm sorry for your loss and all the pain you're going through. I know it won't make you feel better, but just know I understand the kind of pain you're feeling. I've been feeling it for years. It's hard, so hard. I know. At night, when you're afraid of closing your eyes because there will be nothing to distract you from your own mind. And then you only sleep a few hours before waking up and not being able to sleep again. That's the worst part. Nothing in the entire world is worse than the feeling of being alone at this time. It's hard. I know.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

condolences. may God give you the strength, courage and peace to carry on. your mother would want that for you.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Theres strength in you, life is about finding it and making your mom happy in heaven.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

My condolences

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

There is nothing at all that any of us can say to make you feel better about your loss.
Losing someone you love is the worst part of this life and the more you loved, the sharper the pain.
Know you are not alone. Your Mom may not be there to hug you or console you but she is with you, always. In every memory, she lives on. In every kind word you say to a stranger. And most of all in who you are.
So be kind to yourself and she will live on forever. Be kind to others and some of her kindness will touch strangers who will never be lucky enough to know her.

Birthdays are hard when you suffered a loss. Especially when you lost your mom. Try to remember good birthdays with her. Your pain will ease and let your good memories and the smile and love you shared replace the tears a little every day. Colors will come back even if they may not be as bright as they were.

And please never apologize for being human and needing a connection. We may all be separated by screens and keyboards and sometimes thousands of miles but we've all lost people. We've all felt lonely. Opening up to strangers is way better than keeping it all in.

2 years ago*
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

My heartfelt condolences. I am very sorry

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Deleted

This comment was deleted 2 years ago.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Condolences, losing a parent is never easy, hang in there ❤

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Rest in peace Elena. The loss of a loved one is indeed hard but the tears will dry one day and life goes on and part of those who have touched our hearts will live with us. Cry until you had enough then gather yourself and continue your life.
If you need to talk to someone feel free to add me and if not then take care of yourself.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

She is at a good place, the niceness is always rewarded! You should not cry for her loss but be happy that such a wonderful woman existed in your life!

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

sorry 4 that, my condolences...

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Wow, that is rough. Thank you for letting us know so we can care for you and be here for you. My deepest condolences.

May your upcoming year be full of grace, mercy, peace, and rich blessings, including finding what you most need (even if you don't yet know what that is).

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

I'm sorry for your loss. There's not a lot that I can say that may help, but just know that it gets easier over time. Your feelings and emotions won't ever fully go away, but take it slowly and just focus on getting through the next day.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

I am sorry for your loss.

View attached image.
2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Words is never adequate for things like this, but I am deeply sorry for your loss. Losing a parent or a close loved one, especially around the holidays, is never easy. I can tell you though that time does make it easier, but I admit you may never get over the loss completely. You mother sounds like she was an amazing lady... and she's in a good place where she will never hurt again. Just remember that she will always be there when you think of her until you reunite again one day.

View attached image.
2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

I'm sorry for your loss...

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

My condolences, may she rest in peace

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

I'm sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family in this time.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

My deepest condolences for the loss of your mom Elena. She sounds like the type of person that others will remember for the smile she brought to them once or many times. Beautiful music you've linked.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Deleted

This comment was deleted 11 months ago.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

I am really sorry for your loss.

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

I'm sorry for your loss

2 years ago
Permalink

Comment has been collapsed.

Sign in through Steam to add a comment.