Didn't we do this thread last week?
Edit: sorry, took me a sec:
Are you hydrated?
If not, have a glass of water.
Have you eaten in the past three hours?
If not, get some food — something with protein, not just simple carbs. Perhaps some nuts or hummus?
Have you showered in the past day?
If not, take a shower right now.
If daytime: are you dressed?
If not, put on clean clothes that aren’t pajamas. Give yourself permission to wear something special, whether it’s a funny t-shirt or a pretty dress.
If nighttime: are you sleepy and fatigued but resisting going to sleep?
Put on pajamas, make yourself cozy in bed with a teddy bear and the sound of falling rain, and close your eyes for fifteen minutes — no electronic screens allowed. If you’re still awake after that, you can get up again; no pressure.
Have you stretched your legs in the past day?
If not, do so right now. If you don’t have the spoons for a run or trip to the gym, just walk around the block, then keep walking as long as you please. If the weather’s crap, drive to a big box store (e.g. Target) and go on a brisk walk through the aisles you normally skip.
Have you said something nice to someone in the past day?
Do so, whether online or in person. Make it genuine; wait until you see something really wonderful about someone, and tell them about it.
Have you moved your body to music in the past day?
If not, do so — jog for the length of an EDM song at your favorite BPM, or just dance around the room for the length of an upbeat song.
Have you cuddled a living being in the past two days?
If not, do so. Don’t be afraid to ask for hugs from friends or friends’ pets. Most of them will enjoy the cuddles too; you’re not imposing on them.
Do you feel ineffective?
Pause right now and get something small completed, whether it’s responding to an e-mail, loading up the dishwasher, or packing your gym bag for your next trip. Good job!
Do you feel unattractive?
Take a selfie. Your friends will remind you how great you look, and you’ll fight society’s restrictions on what beauty can look like.
Do you feel paralyzed by indecision?
Give yourself ten minutes to sit back and figure out a game plan for the day. If a particular decision or problem is still being a roadblock, simply set it aside for now, and pick something else that seems doable. Right now, the important part is to break through that stasis, even if it means doing something trivial.
Have you seen a therapist in the past few days?
If not, hang on until your next therapy visit and talk through things then.
Have you been over-exerting yourself lately — physically, emotionally, socially, or intellectually?
That can take a toll that lingers for days. Give yourself a break in that area, whether it’s physical rest, taking time alone, or relaxing with some silly entertainment.
Have you changed any of your medications in the past couple of weeks, including skipped doses or a change in generic prescription brand? That may be screwing with your head. Give things a few days, then talk to your doctor if it doesn’t settle down.
Have you waited a week?
Sometimes our perception of life is skewed, and we can’t even tell that we’re not thinking clearly, and there’s no obvious external cause. It happens. Keep yourself going for a full week, whatever it takes, and see if you still feel the same way then.
You’ve made it this far, and you will make it through. You are stronger than you think.
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It's about "giving up," not exclusively depression. Breakups and depression can hardly be called strange company.
Also:
I just feel like shit and I'm really scared that I'll do something stupid.
You're free to fault me for erring on the side of caution.
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+1
That's really well put. Did you find this somewhere on the webs or create it yourself?
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A friend sent it to me a few years ago, I've kept it around ever since. I didn't know the original author until recently: http://eponis.tumblr.com/post/113798088670/everything-is-awful-and-im-not-okay-questions-to
Edit: Oh cool, this is the one I have-- one page PDF https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B6A2F5ky9SELU0Zfd05YMEpyNUk/view
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Oh nice! Good on you for remembering the source. I would have forgotten in a short time frame lol
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Don't know how useful it is, but I'll try to answer all of those
Are you hydrated?
I am a little dehydrated. I usually drink a lot of water, maybe I didn't think about drinking something just because I am so caught up in my emotional stress.
Have you eaten in the past three hours?
I literally ate before writing the OP.
Have you showered in the past day?
Yesterday evening.
If daytime: are you dressed?
It's daytime and I'm dressed casually.
Have you stretched your legs in the past day?
I am doing long walks almost every day, I love walking, I can't sit in one spot for long. I need some sense of transition often.
Have you said something nice to someone in the past day?
Yes, I tell people who matter to me how much I like them and what I like about them. There are no baseless compliments from me, I don't do that. Either I mean what I'm saying or I don't say anthing.
Have you moved your body to music in the past day?
Yep. Sometimes you don't even think about it but catch yourself doing it ^^
Have you cuddled a living being in the past two days?
I did, some good friends yesterday.
Do you feel ineffective?
At the moment, yes. I can't bring myself to do anything right now, besides writing these comments on SG.
Do you feel unattractive?
I usually do. There are moments when I think it's not so bad, though. Then again, I don't care about what strangers think about my appearance, so it's not dramatic.
Do you feel paralyzed by indecision?
Does not being able to decide what game on Steam I'm playing? Because that happens a lot :D
Have you seen a therapist in the past few days?
No, that will probably piss some people of, and I do think it helps certain people, I just don't believe in therapy by strangers myself.
Have you been over-exerting yourself lately — physically, emotionally, socially, or intellectually?
Emotionally, obviously, a little bit physically, since I started working out again. Unfortunately I got a stiff neck 2 days ago, that still hurts like crazy.
Have you changed any of your medications in the past couple of weeks, including skipped doses or a change in generic prescription brand? That may be screwing with your head. Give things a few days, then talk to your doctor if it doesn’t settle down.
Nothing of that matter. Usually I start taking allergy pills every May, but this year I haven't had any issues yet, so I didn't need them.
Have you waited a week?
Sometimes our perception of life is skewed, and we can’t even tell that we’re not thinking clearly, and there’s no obvious external cause. It happens. Keep yourself going for a full week, whatever it takes, and see if you still feel the same way then.
Unfortunately it is an ongoing thing for a couple of weeks. I didn't see her for almost a week, just to cool things off, but then I met her, and it got worse. I try to act normal with her, but she is so weird around me. I did try to talk to her about it, but she acts (or pretends?) like nothing's wrong, which just irritates me even more.
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This is good. This is true. This are things. That you should do.
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Been there, done that ! Just find a new hobbit like going to the gym or learning to play a music instrument. A few months and you'll completely forget about it.
Hope this'll help
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Sorry, but I laughed out loud at "find a new hobbit". 😂 Wise words though, find something that takes your mind off it, if only for a few moments. I suggest dancing, walking in nature or going for a bike ride. Whatever floats your goat. 🐐😉
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sorry my bad hahaha . I didn't realize until you mention it xD
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Your unintended misspelling made me laugh. That helped :)
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Sometimes a girl will try to do "what's best for you" and pretend she doesn't like you anymore, but in fact she still does.
And sometimes things in a relationship just happened, people change, it could have been either way.
You don't think you will get over it, but you will. Takes time, plenty of it.
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It's funny, that I didn't even think about being that specific in my OP, and you're the first to ask that. Not a couple, good friends. And that's somehow even worse to me. I'll edit the OP, thanks for bringing up the question.
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She had a boyfriend since I met her, that was never an issue. I also never acted out of my boundaries. I seriously don't know why she's ignoring me all of a sudden.
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Well, don't. I've felt about the same way. I was just thinking recently about whether I'm over it or not, because the day that it happened was in May and not a May goes by that I don't think about it. I started to get superstitious, because for a few years afterward I always just happened to go through some emotional extremes (unpleasant ones) on the anniversary of the day, unrelated to actually specifically remembering it. Life does go on. It's pretty weird, and it'll probably remain feeling weird. But right now I have all kinds of other, new problems, and obsessions, taking up my whole life. And the girl I was in love with meant everything to me, too. Just take care not to do anything too stupid while you're emotionally unstable and uncertain. Which might be for a while. I don't know. Try to spend some time in nature. Maybe see a friend or some family member who will either be able to relate or you'll just be able to have an OK time around, they just might cheer you up a bit, when you feel like it. Ultimately, it's just going to have to take time. Stuff just goes on... Actually, the idea that you can survive something that seems so horrible, and that life will just continue to go on, kind of makes you think, 'was I wrong to feel so strongly about it all?' It might actually feel wrong that you'll just be fine after enough time, because that would seem to devalue the suffering you've felt. But, you won't be completely fine; as I say, it stays with you. But you'll feel better eventually. I struggle to say any more, because as much as I've continued to think about it over the years, I experienced heartbreak quite a while ago by now. And, actually, some of the things I'm going through now kind of dwarf of how bad that was, as unbelievable as that sounds. So, you always have new problems to look forward to. ;) There'll be a time when this takes on an aspect of mundanity, even if it'll never be something completely mundane or forgettable. Very gradually, it'll recede and be kind of normalized. Just putter about for now. Eat. Sleep. Then see what happens. Do something you like doing; don't do anything, relax. You're right, the Internet, for all its bad rep, can actually be a good way to connect people who have shared similar experiences and that can make a big difference when the people you know in real life can't really relate to you. Hope this helped.
Also, I actually kind of tend to be a bit more cynical or not care when I see these sort of threads on SG, because, yes, it's a site about video games, after all; it might not "be the place". But, whatever. I guess I can care once in a while. I guess I related to the particular way you expressed yourself.
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Yours also happened in May? What an odd coincidence for the girls to rip our hearts out before Summer huh?
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Spring is the season of change. People are more inspired to do new/different things/people.
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Hey, that was a great response, and I can totally relate to what you experience. Sorry to hear you're having a hard time at the moment, I hope things will start looking up for you soon!
As I edited in the OP; it's actually not a breakup like in a couple that happened to me, but losing a friend. You do meet new people to be together with, to fall in love with, even after a breakup, but a friend should be a friend for a major part of your life, right? I just don't know what's going on any why. Talking to her didn't help, she keeps avoiding the topic.
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Please don't do something stupid! I'm pretty sure, even if I don't know anything about you and your story, that it's not worth it.
Of course you're not the first one to feel like this. Of course it hurts, and you will suffer for a while, but pain will fade away at some point. Try to do something that will keep you busy, and don't forget that there will always be people willing to help you :3
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A good friend of mine told me once that she "could stand losing a boyfriend, but can never imagine losing a friend". I did not agree with her then, but over the years I started to see the wisdom behind it.
There is nothing much I can do, considering I am yet another random guy on the internet, and I know it is hard for you right now. But I am sending you a lot of sun and good thoughts, wherever you might be now!
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There is much truth to that. It's a part of your life, a constant, that at some point is not there anymore. Romantic relationsships come and go, but the involvement in a friendship is strong on a totally different level. You feel safe in the presence of a friend, and not having that feeling of safety anymore makes me feel so incredibly helpless.
Thank you for your words!
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its ok, it is how it has to be. you just entered in the tunnel and it looks endless. try to focus on something and distract your mind from those degenerate thoughts. take a walk outside, cook, grow a plant day by day, read book, clean the house, build things furniture with scrap wood. either sleep much or little. see overthinking as an alarm signal, it means you have nothing better to do, and you gotta do something about it.
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You've got, what, 50-60 years left to live? Why spend it worrying about one person who acts like a bitch? She's not special or unique, you just cared for that particular person because you perceived your personalities as compatible, and because she happened to be a part of your social life; which caused a reaction in your brain . It really is that simple. Fairytales are for kids.
Move on. Allowing yourself to be controlled by one in 7,347 Billion is counterproductive and stupid. You want another person like that in your life? Well, being like you are now is not going to do you any favors in that regard.
Realism -> Sentimentalism.
Not that you aren't allowed to grieve or anything. This is going to come off as harsh, and you should handle it the way you want to, but think about what's best for you before you decide to collapse to your own detriment.
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You didn't lose a friend, an acquaintance decided they needed to spend their time otherwise.
That happens. People change, sometimes in an incredibly short time. Maybe they have problems or issues, maybe this move is the best thing for them and their life..
The way it happens can hurt but that's how it goes sometimes. You do not have a permanent subscription on somebodys time or understanding. Try to move on and get involved with other people.
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I'm not special, I'm not the only one, many of you probably had that moment, lived through it, survived it.
She meant everything to me, she still does. I don't know what happened, what caused a 180 from showing how much she cared about me, to as I were a complete stranger to her. It's not the first time I'm heartbroken, but it sure never felt worse. I just don't want to keep going anymore, nothing feels like it matters.
Either I will be mocked, ignored or shitposted at for this, but maybe there are a few who can relate. I mostly post this here, because somehow all the people in my RL I talk about it just don't understand my feelings. It's like I'm an alien and all this "emotion" stuff is something I made up.
Sorry, if you feel like you've wasted your time reading this, I just feel like shit and I'm really scared that I'll do something stupid.
EDIT:
First of all thanks for all the responses, even if you don't think so, it helps. It helps even being spoken/written to.
Many of you think it's about a breakup, and reading my post now it does look like it, so sorry for not being specific. I should've been clearer about that, but yes, It's actually not about a breakup as in a couple. We were really good friends, and that's what hurts more. I've been through breakups with girlfriends, and yes, it was bad in the beginning, and got better over time. But actually losing a friend or feeling like it's happening is somehow worse to me. Just imagine a sibling or a parent suddenly not wanting to speak with you, like at all, for no apparent reason. It's like going insane.
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