I hope the best for you. It takes a lot of courage to talk of something so personnal.
That means you are stronger than you tought!!
I struggle with stress behaviour and i take pills. Dont think that you are alone with problems
The beauty of life (and humanity) is to struggle again death and many things, and have faith
Music give me many tings :
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MpdPlHSQ83k
Take care
(sorry for my bad english i try my best to write something intelligible)
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Stay as strong as your namesake o' mighty Tree. I wish nothing but happiness for you in this wacky world.
Happy factory, cake, battleship, thing next to your name, whatever it is day.
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Dude(tte), I tend to keep my yap shut here and just grind away at the giveaways, so I'm not really a "member of the community" as such - so I don't have a reputation to bank off of - but if you ever just want to talk (or listen; I can ramble for hours about all sorts of inane crap), please feel free to reach out. I have a tiny, tiny friends list, so I guarantee you there'll always be room for you there. I've gone through a lot of the same stuff, with a lot of the same feelings involved, and have figured out some ways to cope with some of it.
I value my privacy highly, so I can imagine what you're going through on that end, but please try to keep in mind that everything that happened was borne out of care for you.
Easy travels to you, my friend.
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I feel the need to correct you on a point here.
You're not "too weak" to deal with depression or "a pussy" because you won't kill yourself. Suicide is an act of weakness and desperation, not strength. If you were really too weak to deal with it, you would have been able to kill yourself, because it would be the obvious choice to make the suffering stop. But there was some strong part of you, buried away, that knew things could still be better. You have some strength left, somewhere, and the fact that you're alive proves it. Even if you can't see it for yourself, even if your brain doesn't want to believe it, there's a part of you that still sees some hope. I'm not going to get all preachy and tell you that you need to nurture that part, or embrace it, or any of that generic positivity. But remember that it's there.
And if you ever need a reminder that it's there, talk to someone. Anyone. Even an anonymous near-stranger on the internet. There are plenty of decent people out there who will be happy to remind you.
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If you can, I would love if you add me on Steam. (I should have sent you an invite! :) )
I wanna talk to you! :)
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I made a small Giveaway for your cakeday.
I'm not going to give you some speech about how things will get better. Just know that we all care about you. We may not know you IRL but your great personality has shined a lot on SG and we are really glad you are back. Hell, I even whitelisted a while back because your posts made me laugh so much. Good luck, you'll always have our support.
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Thanks for the update, hope you can overcome this... (and other user too)
If anything depressing happened again, please read comment in this thread, hope you all the best =)
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you being ok is enough cake for cake day
signed
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Hey man! It seems you are under some serious moral pressure there.. you better don't think about all the life thing as such an important stuff, it's just a random adventure of spirits, and taking it easier is the way to be! I also highly recommend you to read Carlos Castaneda books - they got me away from my chronic depression when I was 24 and had no perspective in life seemingly.. now Im turning 38 and chillin)))))
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If for no other reason, think about how you affected everyone here. Random strangers who wouldn't know you from a bar of soap were worried enough to go interwebs detective.
And the effect is a thousand times greater on your family.
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Glad to hear your your doing better TreeB. Love from the Uk
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Welcome back! As someone who wasn't in a position like yours I'm not able to say something significant here other than, try and never give up!
Get well soon!
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we were all worried - but glad to hear you are still around :) - remember, as can be shown here, when you think nobody cares, there is an army waiting and we have your back :)
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There is probably nothing I can say that will make you feel better.
So I will just leave you a hug. :)
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Cakes come when you less expected, its the way SG tolds you to stay until the next one. It would be a surprise too?
Take care
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Wow... that's heavy! The world isn't a nice place at the moment... and gender problems won't make it easier for you...
I'm not a good talker and find it easier to write (gives me more time to re-write everything until I'm satisfied or just delete everything). I can't give you any advice other than be yourself (well, it's what people always tell me...). It's very hard to be a different person. It uses a lot of your energy and it won't make you feel happy. And about nobody liking you when you're being yourself? There will always be people that like you the way you are!
I wish you all the best and that you may grow to become a strong Tree (m/f)
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In case any of the people who where worried didn't know yet, I'm fine.
I'm guessing some of you want to know what happened. That new job I got? Couldn't handle it. So I tried to kill myself. There's a long story with that, but it ended with me being hospitalized for the past week.
I guess, for once it helped. I don't want to kill myself anymore.I still wish I was dead, and am still plagued with constant suicidal thoughts, but it's a start. And if I'm not going to kill myself, nor do anything dangerous that may lead to it because I'm a pussy, I can at least make my life not as bad as possible. But I don't think it will ever be good. I can't make it, I don't have to motivation. I can't do it for me, because I hate myself too much to do something good for myself. And for others, I've changed myself into what I am now to do right by them, and I've failed horribly. I can't fucking do it again. I faked it 'till i made it into a someone that most don't completely hate, I'm too scared to be myself who I already know people will.
Happiness isn't something I think I'll reach. I got problems I can't overcome. Others have way worse, but I'm too weak to deal with depression and anxiety and other issues. That other issue is that I wish I were a girl. That's a secret that I haven't told anyone, but fuck it. privacy ain't a thing to y'all. I mean, my mom figured that out by what you sent my parents, so I guess I might as well confirm it to anyone of you wondering so you don't assume I'm gay like everyone else does. Btw, my mom wanted to say "thanks for reaching out."
I guess I shouldn't be mad. I saw the two posts, I'll reply to some of the replies later. Y'all cared and worried about me, sorry for that, I'm not worth it. You also made they past year of mine a little more bearable. I can't talk to people, and while this ain't a good enough substitute for a friend, it made me feel better than I would have felt without it, so thanks for both of those things.
I not doing giveaways right now, swing by lugum's post if you want them.
I don't really know what I'll do with sg in the near future. I don't even know what I'm going to do with my life. This is still a place of comfort, but it's no longer private. Anyway, thanks again.
Love Y'all!
-Tree
Edit: Hahahaha, it's my cakeday too? Fucking hell.
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