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Hello fellow users!

Today I will tell you some story. I don’t really know why, I guess I just want to share it with someone.

As some of you might now, I’m jobless for some long time. Things are pretty bad for me now, mostly because of atmosphere in my home. It’s toxic. I try to act like it's nothing but sometimes it’s really, really hard, when only good things that you hear are neutral, because most of time you have to listen how you can’t do anything right. Well, I know, I’m 24 and I feel left behind, I made some mistakes but how about not reminding me about it constantly? Huh? How about some stupid support, a little helping hand and some word of encouragement? I guess it’s too much to ask.

Getting a job would help. I wouldn’t be able to move out, but I would have monies, I would go back on university and finally I would do some progress in my life. Chance to do that occurred on last Wednesday. I went to job fair, I left CV in few places. Finally I approached one booth. Long story short, things escalated really quickly and few hour later I was practically hired. On Thursday and Friday I was supposed to get pre-job training and on Saturday I would start. On that day I would also sign the agreement and I would officially had a job. I was super excited I even bragged about it a little here and there.

But them something happened. On Thursday, during first day of training I got a phone from a company that test software. Nice girl told me that they would like to invite to an interview. If I would pass I would work with games. I would be game tester. Amazing, right? Sure, I know it isn’t as great as it might sound. I’m also aware that it isn’t just playing games all the time and having a good time but it’s still something that interest me and maybe I would find some people to help me with my amazing AFGPRO project.

Anyway, I had to make some though choice – take a job that is granted or resign and risk with something I would really like to do? You have to know, that this first job, the one I practically had, wasn’t my dream one. “most people don’t like their jobs! Grow up!” Yeah, yeah, I know. The thing is I would actually had a really hard time there, thanks to my anxiety that kicks in way to often. But you know - what choice I had when I was looking for job for so long? You don’t have a luxury of being picky when you are under the wall.

I was afraid that ditching that job and taking a risk with game tester position would show me as a quitter. That taking that risk would be an excuse to resign from work that I need, only because I think that I wouldn’t make it there. I know that ‘there is no progress without a struggle’ but there are some things that seems just too hard for me to jump over. I can do brave/stupid stuff, I can accomplish great things, yet there are some simple situations that can defuse me in a second, leaving me helpless.

So what could I do? Answer is simple and anyone with logic and common sense know it. I also know that answer, yet I decided to take the risk. I ditched the first job and today I was on interview. It went good. It was in english, I did surprisingly good. I played few games, I had to make some tests. I’m little nervous about my written english. It’s all good until I don’t have a pressure of time on my head, and today I kinda had it. Still, I hope I know that girl from HR will decide that I’m good enough and from Thursday I will be a proud member of game dev community.

So, well, you don’t have to write anything. If you want you can share some similar stories about taking harder and riskier way. Also, there is a train hidden here, bundled, but with good games. Since I spend few minutes on writing it, you can spend few minutes for reading it. Level 2, will end on next Sunday.

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In meantime I was so busy that I couldn't do SG related stuff that I was supposed to do, and I also catched a cold. Great, right? But it's not all bad - yesterday I won 10 GAs at one time (they all ended in very same moment). One of the games was Bad Rats so now my SG experience is complete. I heard that after finishing that game you evolve to a higher level, so I'm pretty excited to beat it.

Wait a sec - I wanted to write few more things but I didn’t expect that it would end as a such long wall of text. Maybe next time.

EDIT: I promissed you some updates so here we go


24-10-2015

AND NOW WE WAIT...

UPDATE 3:

Yesterday was the second and last day of training. Long story short we had two 'tests'. In first one, I think I did pretty well. In second one... well. I'm little butthurt about it because we had seven tasks to do. I nailed one that was supposed to be hard (I think only two more people from my group did it right) but I failed in one that was supposed to be, well, maybe not easy, but 'medium'. I think it was the only one I did wrong so it should be okay (we were 'allowed' to have two wrong 'answers').

Company have some kind of score system that helps them to decide who to hire. I'm little worried about my english and I wonder if good score from tests will help me if my english wasn't perfect (and let's face it - I probably made some mistakes). Beside that, there will be also some commentary from our 'teacher' but I should be okay with that. He was cool guy, we talk a little during breaks, and I did few things that might have impressed him.

Now, I'm waiting for results. Normally it takes them from 3 to 4 weeks to respond but because they work on many projects they should respond 'fast' which means two weeks of waiting at max. I don't know if they decided to hired someone from next monday, but if they do, my bet is on people that already worked as testers.

So, that's it. I will post results, when they will (or not) respond but it won't be soon :P


UPDATE 2:

Well, first day of training is behind me. It was good. In turns out that whole thing is in polish but all our materials (like games, operating systems, data bases) are in english. Training is really, really basic, and we are suppose to learn most of things from other workers. According to official version, company don't have time to do detailed trainings. Cool, cool, but some infos, for most common systems, would be nice. Well, let's hope that I will sit next to helpfull people :P
Bug reports are, of course, in english. I try to keep them as short as possible to prevent any mistakes. Today I only made two minor mistakes, other people in my group also had some little problems so I think it should be fine. Anyway, if I will get that job I will think about some english lessons to master that language.
As for tomorrow... Well, personally I think it's stupid because that infos are harmless but NDA don't let me talk about anything that is happening there. I mean, I can say that I was on training, but I can't say how it looked, etc. Anyway, it seems that we will have some kind of 'test' but it won't be to hard. If I will keep my head cool, I should make it.

I might or might not be hired tomorrow. If company will decide that they need additional people to main projects ASAP, I will get a job and start on monday. If not, I probablly will be informed after weekend.

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Sorry for potential mistakes, but I'm writing it really fast without checking anything because I have to go to sleep soon :P
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And Thank you for all comments. Sorry I don't respond to them, but I'm kinda busy here :P

UPDATE 1:

Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy. I made it through first stage and tomorrow I will start training that will last for two days! When girl from HR called me I couldn't stop myslef and I said something like "Does that mean I have a job?". Well, not yet my friends. "You will be hired officially after training". Cool, cool. You see, that training is suppose to be second (and last) stage of recrutation, but I think they only want to check if candidates aren't idiots. I'm not (most of time) so I will be okay ;)
Things will now get really serious. I will even have to sign NDA, so no spoilers for you. Both on Thursday and Friday I will spend there 8 hours, which will be hard due to my current sickness but I will somehow make it :D Last but not least, I think that training will be with some guy (or girl) that speak only english so it should be fun :P
I only worry about getting up early in the morning to get there. Last night I almost didn't sleep at all (I just can't sleep when I'm ill :P) and I'm afraid that tonigh I will also only lay for few hours straight. It's not a problem when you don't want to do anything important, but for 8 hours of training in english, it would be nice to have my mind in top form. But again, I will go throught it :)

I forget to add one more game to train. I will bump thread with it :)

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like what you have done there :) link bookmarked for that one moment my points have returned :)

one thing i was wondering though, why not go to that 1 interview while still holding on the the first job?

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Well, I was thinking about it. There are few resons why I did what I did. For example, I felt like it would be unfair for them. They offered me a job out of blue, which means they kinda trusted me. Ditching them after few days of training (you know, all that procedures they teach you when you arrive at new workplace, and there was a lot of them) just felt really disrespectfull. Not to mention two weeks notice that would prevent me from starting work as a game tester ASAP.

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on the other hand its your future so why not iam high but stay save holding on to the first till you know what its all about.
i can understand the feeling unfair, but looking at it from another angle. dont they have more people to fill the position? so if they go for 1:x odds you might as well do the same for a a job :)

and then again 2 weeks is hardly a game changer for most company's, plus if its still your ''trial period' they might even send you out sooner if you tell them of a new job.

but in the end i can respect your choice as you should always make that choice that makes you feel happy

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Well, right now we can only guess what if.

I was thinking about it really hard and I don't regret my decision. You know, what they say Life's simple. You make choices and you don't look back.

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indeed :)

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I try to keep personal stuff out of the forum, but I know how you feel and I've been there. Might add you and leave a few words on that, mixing my personal experience in there. Hang tight, sounds like there's something good coming your way. Usually I hate when people say that shit, the typical "All will end well, just wait" bullshit, but in your situation it sounds like there is actual evidence for it to end well for you!
Keep us updated. I hope you get the job, because in the end you have to do something you feel good about. Working a job you don't like is a possibility and Generation Y is said to be picky and feeling entitled for their dream job, but fuck all that. Do what makes you happy if you want to maintain a healthy way of living.

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Well, I also try to keep most personal info for myself but since we are all anonymous here... Like I said, I don't really know why I wanted to share it.
Anyway, thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate them. If you want and have time, sure add me on steam, I would love to talk with you. Maybe not today since I should go to bed and try to rest a little, but soon for sure.

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I don't see why you can't go to that interview without quitting the other job.
Yeah, someone could say that's a bit of a dick move, but then again, it's a critical point in YOUR life.

If the other job pays better consider the toxic environment you're in (i feel you man, I'm in the same boat) and that you want to continue studying, meaning you gotta move out and have money.
In the other hand, the game tester thing sound amazing and is something I'd really want to do if I had the opportunity.

Either way, you must go to the interview.
You can't make a sound decision without info.

Good luck.

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But I already was on that second interview (like four hours ago) and it went pretty well. I should get feedback tomorrow. I already took the risk, and even if it don't look like that, I was fully aware of what I'm doing.

No matter how it all will end, I feel a little better with myself. I know that I can do good on interviews, I tested my english skills - it boosted my confidence. One way or another, I feel like soon things will be good.

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Yup, it's what I would have done.
Interview experience is really valuable.
Regardless of the outcome, you grew as a person and know a bit more about your surroundings, your options and yourself.

You should be proud of yourself and keep going!

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bump

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Good luck either way. Hopefully you get your dream job. But if not, hopefully you still get your paying job. It's not where you start but where you end up.

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Well, good luck then :3

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I wouldn't probably go for the tester job, I heard it's an absolute nightmare.

Wait, 10 GAs at once? whooooa.... and rats? whoooa

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I think you are wise to try and go with getting the job you would enjoy doing... too many people settle for something they really dont like then are miserable... However, there are many things that might change that idea... how much does the job pay-- what will be the demands on you from the job, what is the stress level, which job is more reliable or company more stable? etc... there are alot of things to consider than just what one enjoys doing...

a SONG--- this should pick you up!! ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7RPCFfudmU

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I don't what it feels like yet
The struggle of getting a job
Well I'm still at school

Obviously I can't even give you one/two-pieces of advice
But here's a thing
Learn to enjoy your job if you already got it
Or you can work there until you find your path

I don't know what to say anymore :(
Here bump! \(^▽^)/

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Good luck matey! :)

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I wish you all the best moving forward. I can also respect the decisions you've made. Finding work you're passionate about and will be happy doing is such a blessing. While not everyone is in a position to do this, sometimes it's because we can become too comfortable with the current situation and don't want to stick our necks out and take a risk. I know risk well, and again can respect what you've decided with the fact that you kept the first potential employer's best interests in mind as well. :)

For some reason the passion you write with made this song come to mind. NSFW with naughty language :) Zack de la Rocha writes with such fervor that it blows me away. This song in particular came to mind because of the "I won't do what you tell me" line. :)

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Either way you got some experience out all of this, gain some confidence, made a tough decision - it'll all make your next actions easier, no matter what they would be. You've made first steps - that's already great and will give you positive result. And I'm not saying that you should await for rejection, I'm saying that the fact that you've started changing situation is matter even more then the first outcomes. Ugh, it's still sound somewhat downplaying. I'm not good at inspirational English, I always can't find the words that interpret my thoughts correctly... Well, long story short - feel good and don't give up!
Good luck and keep us posted!

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Bump! Sharing a song.

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This thread will be bumped Often

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Respect for taking the risk and going for what you want, if that was me I would have hesitated but I would have probably done the same things as you, I wish you the best luck with this job! :)

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Bump!

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simple bump

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Good luck with the second job interview mate, one thing I've learnt these past months is that there's no point dwelling in the past. So instead of thinking about the old job just focus full on the new job :D no one sane will blame you for following your dreams mate and respect as well :)

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Awesome Bump!

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So if you become a game dev, can I have some keys?

But seriously, good luck!

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