Hi. I was wondering if anyone have experienced something like this.

I was a good college student, not the perfect one but I always made projects on time and passed all the classes. I took part-time job as a Java developer about one and a half year before the end of college. Everything was going well. Then the last semester came and... something went wrong. Between part-time job and classes, I was getting somewhat tired - not sure how to describe it exactly. Writing anything, whether it was documentation for a project or a presentation about some subject, was getting harder and harder for me.
Finally, when the time came and I wanted to write my engineering thesis... I was stuck. I opened a document, wrote few lines then I couldn't think of anything to write - I just closed it and went to do something else. I thought it was temporary, but after 2 months and even after I resigned from my job I just couldn't make it. Sometimes I just had an empty head, sometines I was just scared to try and write something again. I didn't ask anyone for help, because a) I thought I'll finally fix myself and write it and b) I didn't want to admit to anyone that I had problems (because it still sounds like I'm just really lazy).

In the end I decided to stop trying and take a break (since I passed all the classes, I can turn thesis later without bad consequences), but I still feel a little bad seeing that most of my friends are over it. I'm not in a bad position (looking for another job right now, and as an IT guy it shouldn't be that hard) but I wonder if I'm just tired or stupid or lazy or just had bad luck.
Has anything like that happened to you or someone you know ? Any ideas what could it be ?

PS. Also I have a cake near my nick so I guess that means giveaway

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Happy cake day!!!!!!

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Yes, happy cake day!

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My guess is that you've simply grown tired of college or school in general. It's something a lot of students deal with sooner or later. My girlfriend has the same issue in that she could study and write her papers well until now, about a full year before graduating, she struggles to remember the pages she studied ten minutes prior, or write something without my help. I have to prod her to get something done for school and her focus is all over the place when it comes to her studies. I haven't sought it online or anything, but I basically link it to your brain wanting something else than dealing with school. Especially so close to the end of it :)

Oh and happy cake day!

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I've had something like that before. I think for me it was a change in brain chemistry when I was a teenager though.
Hope it changes for you.

Happy cake day.

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I finished my PhD thesis recently and I had something similar altough the reasons were probably different. It was partly an ability wall seeing that the things I knew were not sufficient to explain everything in a necessary way or to solve the problems. And second I somehow lost the feeling that I am doing this for me. Most of the time I was concerned what the readers could understrang wrong. At that point I had the impression that people read such text just to find faults in it and not for gaining new knowledge which dragged me down. Additionally as I had to work with people higher positioned than me I noticed some kind of double standard. Everything I wrote had to be explained in ridiculous detail but if I asked why something was wrong people did not bother explaining it to me. Other than that I also have a real bad focus ^^

Edit: And noticed just now. Happy cake day.

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Yup.
Happened to me first when I was in elementary school. First three years I was the best student of my year (teachers said so) but during the last two something chanced: I've never been as good as I were then again.
(During middle school I was a bit under the elementary level but it wasn't hard so I didn't have any problem to complete it being between the top students.)
The second time it happened I was in the middle of high-school (I even failed the third year) and went on til the end.
Things changed at university: finished my bachelor right on time but now I'm stuck with the master's degree since 2009 -_-
During the last years I was passing about an exam per year :(
The fact that I had to go abroad (not really abroad; it's still the same nation but I live(d) on an island so -for us- it is like going abroad) far from family and friends hit me hard. Luckily I had made new friends during the bachelor who helped and prevented me from dropping out.
Year after year they got their degree and I was all alone again (and I almost stopped, again). Now I have a girlfriend who's still studying (different engineering than mine) but she helps me nonetheless. Who knows, maybe this year I will finally complete my days at school :)

I give most of the responsability to our scholastic system: it does the opposite of what should do, it conforms your mind to others instead of helping you find your way/ enhance your skills, it slowly turn your brain off if is more active than the rest, you can't have different theories / points of view. Or maybe I was just veeery unlucky.
(I have my own share of responsability, of course) =P

Laziness can either be a cause or an effect of this situation, it's difficult to tell them apart. If you have someone who can help you, my advice is to ask them to help you. I couldn't have made it without help. Not that I've finished yet, but surely I would have dropped, while now I'm only 1 exam (plus thesis) away from the goal.

Good luck ^_^

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Happy Cake Day :)

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Happy Cake Day (:

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I've been experiencing something like this for most of the last 5 or 6 years, but for me it's probably a symptom of dysthymia (very long-term low-intensity depression), coupled with various life circumstances.

One piece of information which can help you determine if yours and mine are similar is to ask yourself what you actually enjoy these days - not what you remember enjoying or what you expect you'll enjoy in future or what you falsely tell yourself you enjoy, but what actually brings you joy recently?
If you can often answer with at least one specific thing, then you and I are different in that respect.

Relatedly, ask yourself what motivates you into new actions.

Either way, you're not alone.

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Maybe you're not getting enough sleep, or your diet is unbalanced? Man up and eat those veggies!

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Happy cakeday!

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