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May the 12th, 2021

Celebrating the life of the best person I ever met

On May the 4th, my beloved girlfriend fell asleep, calm and in peace, and she never woke up again. She passed away quietly, as quietly as loud and great was our love. It was no surprise, as it was the end of a long illness we both knew would end like this. It might sound horrible, but I really felt relief for both of us. No more suffering for her, no more endless nights waiting in despair for me. So, time to pass the page?

No, I'll never be able to forget what this person has done to me, with me, for me. She still brings me strength and inspiration in these rough times, which have lasted half and two years of a terrible illness, went worse around the beginning of past year, and gone totally downhill from October to now. Now you know why I've been invisible for more than a year. I still have managed to get out of the hole I made with my life since I was young, and that is thanks to her. I'm not overstating that everything good I'm doing now to repair my life is thanks to her, and I make sure that the people who are helping me with myself know it. When she found me I was really a disaster, but she got the best out of me as no one has ever done in my almost half-century of existence, made me confident, strong, daring... Now, besides rebuilding from scratch my life, I also have to repair my broken and empty heart and learn to keep going on. Some gaming again, read more, reconnect with friends online and offline, listen to music again too... But, pass the page, no I can't, I'll keep reading forever. She'll always be with me in one way or another.

Once again, I'm not exaggerating it. I'm old enough to know she's the love of my life, until my own end.

Of all the things I've done and I'm going to do about this situation, this train is probably the only thing 99.9% of you will ever know, and actually the most trivial one. Yet it's because of her. It was actually her who gifted me my first Steam game (American Truck Simulator), kept making me gifts, pointing me to nice games, and the ball kept rolling when I joined SteamGifts, groups, met people in Steam, and despite my (almost permanent) silence in the last 16 months, I have a nice friend list in Steam.

But the importance I give to my Steam library is based on the feeling that it's mainly a gift from her, although other people have gifted me games, I've won giveaways, etc. When she started to gift me bundles, she insisted that I should trade the repeated games so I get a better library. She always giggled about me being such an eclectic gamer and collector. However, after almost one year, I've not been able to trade all of her remaining gifts, with nine left. I decided to stop trading (which I hate) and to make something else out of those gifts months ago.

The train

Thus, it's only appropiate that one of the things I do about her passing is gifting as many games as I can, including the few remaining gifts from her, in a big train, as big and good as I can. I've been preparing this train since end of January, and it's far from what I wanted to do. I wanted to make a +100 carts train with AAA and most wishlisted games, spending a few hundred dollars on only the best games in Steam. Instead, I am making a 67 carts train with 81 keys of limited quality and a total spending of bit less than €20. But I managed to get and keep more than a few gems. And I'm doing this train with the best intention, so that everyone who participates can find something they'd like to get, and also so they know and understand why this train is special to me.

Due to SteamGifts limitations and errors, I've had to split the train in two. The first and current part is 53 carts with 62 games; at least I made the wagons for the important ones. The remaining ones will go in a second train which will be announced in the comment below by monday night or tuesday morning and run for 4 days starting the next day of the announcement (UTC). I'm sorry for this, but SG said I could do 69 simultaneous giveaways but the more I made, less were remaining than calculated by that number, and deleting some didn't help. E.g. making the last giveaways, SG told me I could do 12 giveaways, but after the tenth, it told me I couldn't do more. So the smaller train next week will have the remaining 14 games (19 keys). Extended celebration train.

All of you have been invited to read this through various means, and some of you might not even know or remember me to hear this kind of personal stuff. But for whatever reason you've read all this, and I ask you a few things:

1. Please forgive me and be understanding of any error or mistake I've made in the train, as I'm not in the best situation to really do things right, plus working a bit against time and SG limitations. If you spot anything wrong, please comment in the giveaway (or in the previous one) and I'll fix it ASAP. Updates, changes and announcements will be logged in the comment below this post.
2. Enjoy the train, choose well which games you want to enter for, I wish you can find interesting or wishlisted games for you, and good luck to everyone.
3. No comments in the giveaways about the actual reason of the event, please. I don't want condolences, encouraging words, sorries, hugs, pats in the back, etc, and most of all I don't want questions. Yes I'm depressed, but I want to keep going on and advance, not stay in the same place. And with the best of your intentions, all those things would make me do exactly what I don't need nor want.
4. A few of these keys (nine) are a bit old, or for whatever reason keys might have been revoked, expired or transmuted into invalid. I'd ask you to allow me to delete a giveaway if there are troubles with it. However, most of them are from bundles or promotions in the last 4 months, since end of January, and most come from legit, trustable sources, so I'm confident all keys will work.
5. And most important, please keep all these links, including this post, private. Don't share them with anyone, please. Don't post them anywhere no matter how private or likeable is the place. With one exception.

The exception is that this train is one simple and trivial way to celebrate the love she and me shared, so you can share this post, and the ticket(s) to the train, with your significant one. Not a friend, relative, or good coworker. No matter how you love your son or mother, or infatuated with your neighbour. But share only with the one you really love, that person you can't live without, that person that makes you feel as if everyday is Valentine's (says someone who didn't like Valentine's).

Also, the train will be for levels 0-3+, with the carts increasing quality with level every ~10 carts; then three special sections, one of level 1 and two of level 0. So keep advancing even if you find giveaways of higher level than yours, you'll reach the special sections. However to reach the last games, you'll need a special ticket. If you don't have it, don't ask for it. Otherwise, you're welcome to participate in all the games you want and are able to reach. My most personal gifts are at the end of the train, not necessarily being the best games in the train, but my most special gifts to you. And yes, the best games are at the very end.

And now, being this an invite-only train (I usually make them public), I tell you that I'll go back to sparse giveaways when I can and a short public train maybe in xmas or who knows... Until I get tired of ungrateful people and I stop doing them public.

So without further ado, enjoy the train: The ticket code is eHjnd (lowercase Echo, uppercase Hotel, lowercase Juliett, lowercase November, lowercase Delta).
(Remember that SteamGifts giveaways are in the form of https://www.steamgifts.com/giveaway/CODE/ where CODE is a five character code made of numbers, and upper and lowercase letters, like the one above; and the last slash is important.)

My final words about this subject

If you have a significant one, don't be shy to show your love, with words or actions. If you don't have one... It's never too late to find someone. If you want one, never surrender. If you had past bad experiences, forget them. You really never know how a new relationship can turn your world upside down, for the best.

In any case, enjoy your life.

Regards, J.