I send my condolences and I'll be praying for you both. Take care.
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Very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine having to go through that.
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I hope you will feel better every day, even if it has to happen in baby steps.
While there are wounds that will never fully heal, I am sure you will notice at some point that you have grown and become stronger once you are able to look back at this part of your life. I just wish there was something I could do to make it easier or happen faster.
I truly believe you will be a much stronger person eventually (and probably already are), now that the painful day-to-day reality is over and you can reflect and start to heal. I wish you all the best and send you lots of love and positve energy.
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Condolences to you and I hope each day gets a little easier during this extremely tough time. As you've said, small steps and do what you can day by day. Over time, things will heal and you will recover and be stronger for it. Wishing you all the best for the coming future!
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I have no words that can help with your pain, but I can give you one piece of advice: don't force yourself to carry that sort of burden alone. If sharing it with other people online helps, do it as much as you like. If you need a real-life friend's shoulder to cry on, go bother your friends for it. If you feel you need professional help, actively seek it. Your pain is yours alone, and other people can't remove it from you, but what others can do is help you carry it, and help you carry yourself through it. You will come out on the other side, stronger and not a single bit worse for the wear, so just stay strong and keep taking baby steps until you get there, alright?
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For what little it's worth, this stranger will keep you and your family in his thoughts and prayers.
The way you talk about the situation shows great maturity and inner strength, even though it may not feel that way to you at this moment. It sounds like you are on as healthy a trajectory as you can be given what you have endured. That gives me reason to believe you will find some measure of the healing you deserve to experience moving forward.
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My condolences. It's a sad news but at least it's over now. This whole bad situation. Be strong and take care of yourself.
Just as you said: baby steps. Take your time.
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I am sorry to hear this, my condolences.
The healing you speak of, I'm sure it will happen. Take your time, don't lose hope.
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I'm sorry for your loss.
I know it's cheesy, but every road starts with a single step. It sounds like you're either found the correct direction, or getting close to it ( You need to think, and care about yourself, and I'm happy and I feel proud that you know that ) - then even those baby steps will get you forward and towards your goal.
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My condolences. I hope the future will lead you back to brighter paths.
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Sorry for your loss. Hopefully you can have solace in the memories your husband has given you.
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You are probably aware that I tend to go AWOL for long periods when life gets too rough on me.
And it has been rough to hellish the last couple of years.
I already posted over at Steam at my favorite groups to let people know, but I never could pull myself together enough to post here too.
Until now, I guess.
Although my husband didn't want to admit it, the cancer was slowly getting the upper hand.
Which isn't too surprising as he had forfeited on all mainstream medical treatment and put all his belief in an incredible quack treatment that was really insane.
He went to a hospice on April 8th, the nurses that gave him home care the last couple of months had tried in vain to convince him to come to the hospice.
He refused, cause that was the end of the line, that meant he was going to die.
He had so many plans and projects still going, things he still wanted to do etc. Some of them also insane, over the top and incredibly expensive.
But at least he tried to make the most of the time that was left.
By the time he finally agreed to hospice care there wasn't much left of him.
I wish it would have been easier to talk to him, to talk to him and with him about the reality of him slowly dying of cancer.
It wasn't possible, he pushed me away, he pushed reality away.
I could go on and on about what happened the last couple of years, but I am slowly getting to the point that in the end it's all water under the bridge. And it's just so incredibly sad that we both suffered so much.
My husband enjoyed his stay in the hospice, the volunteers there were all so nice to him and gave him such loving care.
He didn't get to enjoy it very long.
April 12th, on Easter he died.
I am hoping he's at peace now, cause the last couple of years he suffered tremendously.
I've basically been a basket case the last month.
Still there was a funeral to arrange and somehow I managed to pull it off.
Now it's time to heal, heal from the injury inflicted on me and heal from the pain and injury I sustained myself by not being able to break the pattern I was in, not being able to abandon my husband. It's complicated and it's a mess.
My husband also left me with a humongous mess to deal with, sort out and try and sell off.
I grief, I mourn, I am angry, I am exhausted, I am a bloody mess.
I need to take baby steps to stay afloat, to allow for some self mending but there's also a ton load of shit stuff to deal with.
The stuff my husband bought, collected, the unfinished projects: that's a bloody mess too!
I have a temporary place to live, which is great and much needed! Cause my house kind of exploded with all the bought stuff and the hoarding/collecting mania my husband developed.
Baby steps, that's all I can do.
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