Sorry for your loss, cheshirecatgirl. Stay strong! 💪💪💪
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Baby steps is way better than doing nothing.
I'm sorry for your loss.
It IS complicated, but if I can put it in words: You can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved.
And it's always most difficult with family, since they know which buttons to press and deflect your arguments.
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Please take a step at the time and I hope you'll be OK
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Sorry for your loss. Hope he is to a better place now.
My gf's mom died a year ago. It's still hurting me and her about it. For us the strength of being around friends and each other helped a lot.
Have strength.
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I am very sorry that you had to go through all this
I can’t even imagine the loss of a person close to me
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My condolences.
Hopu u to get better. i wish u take care everything soon !
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Dear unknown Cat demon,
Stay Strong and wild in your heart and soul even it is injured or broken into pieces.
An old friend once told me: "We go together for a part of our paths". This helped me to focus on the time we spent together rather to the loss of him. My condolences.
Sir Myr the 13th.
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Sorry for your loss, hope that the shatter pieces rejoin one day.
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I'm sorry for you loss. Stay strong now for you. As you already said, one step at a time.
I wish that you find your happiness.
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You poor baby. And yes, I mean it from my heart. You can do two things, call in an appraiser to find out how much his stuff/projects is worth and try and sell all on eBay or something similar, or get someone to sell it for you. It's up to you. So you are right, take baby steps now, and take comfort in the fact that he's no long suffering and you can finally find some peace in knowing that it's all over. I know you miss him, but at the same time you are furious with him for leaving such a mess. Hey, that's normal. Get Hospice to refer a Social Worker to you to help you through this. I'm a retired Nursing Home Administrator and when a long term resident died in my facility there were a lot of staff that mourned them. They had grown so attached. So I had a Social Worker from Hospice come in to help them with their grief. You have nothing to lose and definitely a lot to gain. Again, my condolences for your loss. Hang in there. Time will make it better, eventually.
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My condolences. I hope that you find the strength to put your life back in order.
There will always be a missing piece, you may feel broken. In that times I hope that you can remember the following.
When muscles are put under stress, they are cut in places. The body heals these places and the muscles become stronger.
If this is not a good analogy for you, then please look for kintsugi.
I know that no words can describe your feelings. Be safe.
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Peace be unto you and people you love, cheshirecatgirl.
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Cancer is horrible, I've lost my grandpa to it and I feel your pain. Hoping you can heal and find happiness again. Time heals all wounds. You've been through a lot, take care of yourself now. ♥
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I am sorry for your loss. I can't imagine all that you have been through. I hope things get better from now on...
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My condolences.
One foot after the other, sometimes that's all we can do and that's ok.
I hope there are people close to you that can help you through this.
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My condolences.
Because the last years where very rough on you, I do hope you take your time to recover/heal. And manage to be happy again.
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Your words have meaning on several levels. And I can learn from some of them.
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I truly can't imagine what you've been through. I hope that by posting this and speaking about your loss - it may help alleviate the pain a little. Now that your husband is in a better place, it's time for you to recover, so please make sure to take good care of yourself. Stay strong, stay safe and wishing you the best in getting your life back on track.
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You are probably aware that I tend to go AWOL for long periods when life gets too rough on me.
And it has been rough to hellish the last couple of years.
I already posted over at Steam at my favorite groups to let people know, but I never could pull myself together enough to post here too.
Until now, I guess.
Although my husband didn't want to admit it, the cancer was slowly getting the upper hand.
Which isn't too surprising as he had forfeited on all mainstream medical treatment and put all his belief in an incredible quack treatment that was really insane.
He went to a hospice on April 8th, the nurses that gave him home care the last couple of months had tried in vain to convince him to come to the hospice.
He refused, cause that was the end of the line, that meant he was going to die.
He had so many plans and projects still going, things he still wanted to do etc. Some of them also insane, over the top and incredibly expensive.
But at least he tried to make the most of the time that was left.
By the time he finally agreed to hospice care there wasn't much left of him.
I wish it would have been easier to talk to him, to talk to him and with him about the reality of him slowly dying of cancer.
It wasn't possible, he pushed me away, he pushed reality away.
I could go on and on about what happened the last couple of years, but I am slowly getting to the point that in the end it's all water under the bridge. And it's just so incredibly sad that we both suffered so much.
My husband enjoyed his stay in the hospice, the volunteers there were all so nice to him and gave him such loving care.
He didn't get to enjoy it very long.
April 12th, on Easter he died.
I am hoping he's at peace now, cause the last couple of years he suffered tremendously.
I've basically been a basket case the last month.
Still there was a funeral to arrange and somehow I managed to pull it off.
Now it's time to heal, heal from the injury inflicted on me and heal from the pain and injury I sustained myself by not being able to break the pattern I was in, not being able to abandon my husband. It's complicated and it's a mess.
My husband also left me with a humongous mess to deal with, sort out and try and sell off.
I grief, I mourn, I am angry, I am exhausted, I am a bloody mess.
I need to take baby steps to stay afloat, to allow for some self mending but there's also a ton load of shit stuff to deal with.
The stuff my husband bought, collected, the unfinished projects: that's a bloody mess too!
I have a temporary place to live, which is great and much needed! Cause my house kind of exploded with all the bought stuff and the hoarding/collecting mania my husband developed.
Baby steps, that's all I can do.
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